I don't think we should be personally attacking Mike here. It is easy for church to be a routine that means nothing, It's good to think about what you're doing and what it means to you. Christian lyrics can be insincere and forced; It's easy to tell the difference between something inspired and something that isn't. When you've been told how to think for so long It's easy to walk off and try something else that might be the complete opposite. But that doesn't mean that you can't come back to the pure desire of wanting to feel God's presence again and realize your life hasn't taken you anywhere better. There is nothing wrong with questioning. I know I have no one to judge.